Pillars

Good Morning.

My Seasonal work requires me now to start early. So I keep missing the morning mass. Today was a free day. I walked up the fifteen minutes to the church with good thoughts. The February winter sun was late in lighting up even though it was 6,30am.

I had forgotten it was Thursday and there was no 7.15 am mass. Somehow I felt happy, that the church was empty except for  two elderly man and woman who sat at the far corners of our big church.

It gave me a good chance to meditate and pray. The thoughts that went through gave me these three words. Of which Sacrifice gave me the lesson to sacrifice our self, which is what is giving us the trouble in our daily life and in relations. A much harmful worry, when we shouldn't be loosing our mind space to such thoughts.

A happy time, a wonderful time. Thank you My Lord!

Hello Jesus

Bless us with the grace to come to you when things are thick and going tough...

Story..

I don't know how my story is going to end, but whatever it is, My Lord, please do not let me 'Give up' on life.

Kindness and Mercy

When we offer our days and troubles at home and in life and count on His mercy and kindness, He opens door for us, from the very situations which we thought we will never get out, alive perhaps.

The experience of each day that way is an enriching lessons indeed.

Thank you God! for your kindness and mercy.

Come to Pharaoh!

Most of the time, we run away from life and find pleasure in the solitude we find for ourselves far away from the realities. 

After sending down the seven plagues, the Pharaoh still has not come around to the idea of liberating the Israelites from slavery in Egypt. Then GOD asked Moses to "...come to Pharaoh..".

Not just going there and physically assess the might and majesty of the power source of the enemy but to come to the soul and essence of the oppressor, which make him think and do what he is doing. 

Similarly we all have to get into the essence of our troubles, whether it be financial debt, unhappiness in relationship, joblessness, lovelessness etc.. 

Wishing you all the grace and strength "to come to your own emotional enemies." ..to be a light for yourself and every one around you.

The light of our heart!

What does our heart reflect, the light or darkness?

How come can a young man, kill 20 innocent children? Was he that bad? What brought him to such a frame of mind?

Does the belief that on December 21st the world is going to end, has anything to do with that young man's behaviour?

Ignorance of spiritual truth, can be destructive ?

The Dome, my eyes search for..

Usually, as soon as I get down at the bus stop in the highway at Vallarpadam, I can see the Lady of Ransom's dome, if my mind is free of worries, I will start praising the LORD in my heart as I walk upto the Church. But lately, peace is not what I have. 

My father was not highly educated, still he sent me to college. Though he was not capable of helping me with academics, he took care of the financial part and provided a home with good enough atmosphere for studies. I did not disappoint him as I went all the way to two masters. I recollect with a relish, how proud he used to be when my exam results came. I believe that was the best I could give my father. 

When life gave me a chance to bring someone back to life from the depth of worst, I gave it my best, just like my father. I prayed and dreamed that 'someone' would give the best, unfortunately even after enjoying the best for a while, that 'someone' did not had the heart to continue, to keep on walking THE WAY. I was broken hearted. 

Though, I have sidestepped from that 'someone's' life, for it to take its own natural course, the memories come up my mind often and destruct me. Today, I got an invitation to attend one of the Soorya classical musical festival. All through the evening rendering, I kept humming the psalms of worship and adoration, it took me to another level of spiritual heights. I had a similar experience during the fireworks of our local temple at Maradu, which is famous for its "vedi kettu". 

Thank you my LORD, for helping me convert my miserable situation into an opportunity to be one with you and find some peace.

The flame

Psalms 144:1

1 Blessed be the Lord, my rock, who trains my hands for war and my fingers for battle .

The flames that is raging in my heart....

I am imperfect my god, I cannot love completely with my own heart, please come into my shortcoming, please let me, please help me love with your true love, unconditional love. 

Save me, O! LORD from the consequences of my imperfections-anxiety, fear, disappointment, anger. Fill my shortcomings with your perfection My LORD, liberate me O! Jesus, from the bondage of these emotions.

Love

John 15:12
"This is my commandment: love one another as I have loved you."

Oh! My God, Thank you for teaching me how to love, forgive me for the times I have hurt, I have let down those who have trusted my love. 

Help me Lord! Please help me, to forgive who deliberately booted my trust and enjoyed it like children playing in the mud.