Come to Pharaoh!

Most of the time, we run away from life and find pleasure in the solitude we find for ourselves far away from the realities. 

After sending down the seven plagues, the Pharaoh still has not come around to the idea of liberating the Israelites from slavery in Egypt. Then GOD asked Moses to "...come to Pharaoh..".

Not just going there and physically assess the might and majesty of the power source of the enemy but to come to the soul and essence of the oppressor, which make him think and do what he is doing. 

Similarly we all have to get into the essence of our troubles, whether it be financial debt, unhappiness in relationship, joblessness, lovelessness etc.. 

Wishing you all the grace and strength "to come to your own emotional enemies." ..to be a light for yourself and every one around you.

Smile

Sorry to admit, but I do not have any more of fresh pictures from Vallarpadam. Not surprised though, its been over five weeks since I went there. Work mostly, on Sundays too.

Come to think of it, I have been blessed with one of the best opportunity of work at one hand, but on the other hand I have a lot of troubles to deal with.

That's more or less how my life has been, a mixture of both at the same time - good and bad, happiness and sadness, weakness and strength...

With age, I have learned to be strong with Lord, never to let anguish overtake me... (Smile)..but its not easy...(Smile).

Guardian Angel

Oh! my guardian angel, comfort me, console me.. I am broken and lost. 

Psalms 55: 13-15

13If it were a rival insulting me, I could bear with him; if it were a foe in pursuit of me, I could hide from him.
 14But it is you, an equal of mine, my bosom friend, my companion 15whose fellowship I enjoyed as we walked together in the house of God. 

Emotional Trials

2Samuel 14 :14
"Even God does not bring the dead back to life, but the King can at least find a way to bring a man back from exile".

Feeling lost and lonely...

The Day's bread

May god bless and keep our ways of earning bread.

Solace

With my mind greatly troubled with the new worry, I had no choice but to throw myself on the subjects which I have to lecture every day to beat the anguish that is burning my "dil". Boon or bane I do not know, though very much junior in the team, I was assigned quite two more subjects lately which has left me with no time to think of anything else but my lecture notes.

Did those who became experts in some subjects had a severe heart burn too?

At the lady of ransom, on previous two Sundays I sat few hours without even thinking or analyzing anything. My mind was unusually blank. May be the fear factor. The fear of how I will meet my new responsibility has blown out my senses...:)?

Am I overreacting?

Felt happy attending the mass standing under the big tree in the courtyard. The voice that came out through the "kolambi" speakers were crisp and dear, it consoled me and told me I should not despair.

Later that week, got a surprise call from Tanzania, in Africa, the gentleman asking me for a time for a telephonic interview. The interview was not that great, I could not answer some key questions satisfactorily. Still they asked me when can I join them, since their requirement is urgent. I had my students to think of, I said, no way before first week of April.
"Ok", the gentleman said, "but we will go for some one who can join us early, if we can find one".
I haven't heard from them since.

I have no choice, if they call again, I will have to take up the offer to over ride the financial demon that is going to eat me soon.

But the teaching job.. which I have come to like so much.

I am sure I will find my answer at Lady of Ransom. Surprise, how this gentleman in a Rose farm in Tanzania which exports flowers to Europe found my CV?

Well..Lady of Ransom Miracle.. what else can I say...