Secret truths

Who did Jesus came for? What was his purpose?

"...to give good news to the poor, to give freedom from bondage, to give sight to the blind, to liberate the oppressed and to proclaim the year of Lord's Mercy..."

So that even the most unfortunate find peace and happiness in this life and this world. It means too, the journey starts within ourselves first. The urge and need for a way to live this life, without being jeopardized by the "maya" of this world.

May we all have the grace to seek the way!

Smile

Sorry to admit, but I do not have any more of fresh pictures from Vallarpadam. Not surprised though, its been over five weeks since I went there. Work mostly, on Sundays too.

Come to think of it, I have been blessed with one of the best opportunity of work at one hand, but on the other hand I have a lot of troubles to deal with.

That's more or less how my life has been, a mixture of both at the same time - good and bad, happiness and sadness, weakness and strength...

With age, I have learned to be strong with Lord, never to let anguish overtake me... (Smile)..but its not easy...(Smile).

Emotional Trials

2Samuel 14 :14
"Even God does not bring the dead back to life, but the King can at least find a way to bring a man back from exile".

Feeling lost and lonely...

Triumph

How is it possible to quench my thirst if I do not pull up the water from the well? Yes we do have to take the effort to pull up the water and we cannot expect anyone else to do that for us.

I was loosing sleep over a reaction and an  attitude of a person, on whom I had spent considerable time and spiritual energy to restore peace to that person's anguished heart. Lately, somehow, I had a feeling maybe the person is taking me for a ride, giving me all the attention to keep the friendship going but no honest like for the spirituality I was talking about hour after hour. I should admit here, this was just hunch of a feeling without any basis.

But the fact is it took on my heart like a wild fire, making me think wild thoughts and go sleepless. When it became unbearable, I took the matter to our LORD, and He advised me through James 2 where the Apostle warns against being prejudiced in treating people. Though he mentions there about treating people differently based on their appearance, I took it for a direct warning for me not to discriminate a mind baselessly. Then I am breaking the commandment of "love your neighbor".

I thought about it for a while, then I understood, why should I have even a need to think bad about someone, especially when I am not certain about the facts, then I knew am putting more of my intellect, more of me into the matter than the love of GOD. I should approach the issue with a subdued heart which is tamed in prayer and filled in love than the rash, sensitive worldly mind.

James 2:13

For GOD will not show mercy when He judges the person who has not been merciful: but mercy triumphs over judgement.

That set my mind free. The next time we met up, we got on like a fire as ever before.

Thank you my LORD for making me pull up the water from your ever full well of Wisdom.

Habakkuk 3:17-19
Even though the fig-trees have no fruit
and no grapes grow on the vines,
even though the olive-crop fails
and the fields produce no corn,
even though the sheep all die
and the cattle-stalls are empty,
I will still be joyful and glad,
because the LORD GOD is my saviour.
The Sovereign LORD gives me strength.
He makes me sure-footed as a deer,
and keeps me safe on the mountains.

Well, happy relationships are very important in our lives. We all know that. But at times, no matter how hard we try or how best we love and give, others may not understand the spirit and earnestness behind it. Not that we expect anything in return, but wish they too realize how delightful it is to be joyful in the LORD, than to continue thinking in their own way which brought them to destruction.

So I tell my achy breaky heart, delight in the LORD if your love is not bearing fruits or the fields of "their" heart has no corn, give them their time, reign in your impatience and disappointment, they too will turn around for sure and will spread the sweet fragrance of their soul!

This was the beautiful message I got at  Lady of Ransom last Sunday when I off-loaded a heart load of disappointment and anger. :)

Power

You my lord is the power of my mind, the wind of my sails, the color of my dreams, let me not, never ever, loose sight of you and walk away from your ways!!

I still carry the never healing scars of the those awful times, when I was away from you, in a world I foolishly thought I ruled.

Psalms 21:21 "He who seeks justice and mercy will gain life, prosperity and honor."

Humility and faith in God, they gain life and prosperity. The right way.

Port after port,
Load after load,
Crew after crew,
Day after day...

A journey, a sail,
Till that day,
Same like the day,
We were born,

When we all will be,
buried back into,
the womb of mother nature.

Till then, life has to float on.

No sacrifice, no victory.

The very purpose this blog is to share my experience of trying to face my life in Jesus way. When I say that I mean the troubles and worries that comes in life, trying to see them the way Jesus has taught and live them that way. Of course, I am not successful all the time, but the hope of peace and joy from the Gurus way is keeping me walk that way since all else I have tried, I have failed miserably.

Recently certain happenings have undone my efforts so far to a larger scale than I would like to admit. First is I have started smoking again, not that many still two three cigrattes a day. A slave, first to the emotions that brings a kind of helplessness in my mind and then the craving. The helplessness started when the folks whom I have to repay after I inherited a debt called for asking money.

The second is loosing temper, flaring up at the least of provocation.

At times, I am loosing the focus to see the tests as a challenge the way my belief preaches. Somehow I fall under the burden of challenges taking them as certainties even though the fact remains nothing is certain nor constant, even this stage has to pass.

No sacrifice no victory was the caption they had on the board of my undergraduate students. But most of them did not turn up for a special class I arranged to finish up their lessons before the semester end. I lived that three hours class, an extreme joy god has blessed me with during this troubling times.

Sat all the afternoon today, Sunday, at lady of Ransom. It was impossibly hot even though it had rained well last week, even with thunders rolling.

test of faith

Very recently I inherited some hefty debts. Since it came from someone I should respect in life, I took it with a open heart. But later, somehow the attitude of that person wrecked my peace. Within no time, I could feel hatred filling my being. Fear and desperation took hold of me. I had lost the light in my life.

The struggle is on, to resurrect my being. I know my victory lies not in hurt but in hope and love. The very demons of vices and temptations which I have conquered earlier are pounding on my doors.

The battle has become sadly exciting..My destiny is in suspense..:):):)