Love

Only, only if, I can hold the peace of my heart,
The same peace You gave unto us, O lord,
Through the winds and the sun,

Only then, my heart will bloom,
To color the world with love...

Farewell, Winter..

The dripping hot summer is here, Kochi is already sweating alot.. The camp fire that bid the season farewell..:) As a part of this program got a chance to meet some good folks who work among special children and orphans. Couldn't make it to lady of ransom this week.

Surprise continues..

Sunday, two weeks ago, when I went to Lady of Ransom, I had a special reason for thanks giving. There was a teacher colleague, who was going through high level of anxiety as her husband was taken ill. Numbness of limbs. He has been diagnosed with some problem with his nerves which is not helping circulation.

Her anxiety was giving her big time stress. I could somehow sense it and in every possible opportunity, I used to talk to her, positively which she welcomed happily.

I had offered her problems during my intercession at lady of Ransom along with a lot of other acquaintances who was also interceding for her from different places.

Last week, she left our college when she got a huge break at the university which somehow secured her life with better stability.

I was pleasantly amused.

Come to think of it, the whole offer was a blessing, with absolutely no effort from me. This is a realization I do not want to forget.

So the mission, is to provide my students, the best exposure to the subject I have been assigned.

The effort is hard work, but I am enjoying it whole.

Potta Bible Convention January, 2010

The theme message from Fr. Mathew Naikcomparamabil in his talk during the Convention :

Just around the time, When Father Mathew and Panackal were doing there initial ministry at Potta, many mothers and wives used to come to them requesting prayers for the release of their sons and husbands from the bondage of alcoholism.

They used to pray and many of these were saved from the wicked bondage. But after two or three months, these men who are living in a world where these vices can be easily practiced will succumb to the temptations miserably and the cycle will repeat itself with the same mothers and wives coming to Potta requesting spiritual help.

As this went on, Fathers sought the divine advice and the message they got was:

No matter what ever be our sufferings, we have to offer them along with the sufferings of Christ Jesus to our Holy father for His mercy on thousands who are suffering the same pain, hurt etc.

Since our suffering in itself does not qualify for a reconciliation 'cos of our impure stage as humans, this offering has to be made along with Christ, Jesus's suffering.

This is an intercession in itself, without doubt this will bring us not only healing of our suffering but also grace and blessings for certain.

I have heard Fr. Naikcomparamabil stressing this aspect in almost all his talks in recent years.

Beggar

In the last few months or so, I have spent quite a lot of time at the Lady of Ransom Church meditating and worshiping, just like many others who come there . There were few things that was on my mind , really bothering me. One was the fact the current economic recession, ate my job at Dubai, but I was not really bothered about the job situation as I had gone through similar situation earlier too in the last twelve or so years I was working there and has come out of it successfully with the grace of god. My worry was that , I had lost the urge to work .. to work for a company, to continue to be an accountant.

During my sessions at Lady of Ransom, my heart has cried out many times to take me there where God want me to go. A realm of activity which he has meant for me as I know with all my heart that my working days are over.

Ten months passed by, I had ran out of my reserves many times over and nothing happened. My own folks thought, I had gone nuts. Not applying for anything new, turning down offers from previous employers etc..

Then from the blues came a call from a college in the neighboring town, with an offer t o teach. Its only three days now, since I started teaching but I "Believe" my god knew better...:):):)


Indeed, I too was a beggar at His feet and I re-collect with a smile, how this woman in the picture was so confused, when she raised her hands upto me each time she saw me and I could give her only my best smile. She did not knew there was not much difference between she and me, both was at His mercy.

Way of life

The altar design today, Diamonds with sarees.
First Sunday of the New Year I went to Vallarpadam. As usual there were many by the Lady of Ransom praying their heart out. I feel sad at heart, not seeing them pray but the way they grieve inside. We can make out from their expression the kind of turmoil their souls are in.

Whenever I see such, my heart also goes out in prayer along with them, "May all of them, find the true peace, not just the solution for their current miseries, but the true peace and joy that the Lord has offered which no one can take away from them. May their heart be opened to receive such love and peace".
But the fact of the matter is the world is so devilish these days, even brothers and parents become enemies of each other, waiting for the chance to hurt and finding pleasure in others fall. The silent rage that boils inside of these unfortunate ones, which some times erupts violently and ends in tragedies.
Oh! god please guard and keep such, especially those who sought Your solace today at the Lady of Ransom.
Though I enjoys taking pictures very much, I was badly shaken during the prayers at church today, I could not enjoy much the sun set pictures I took today at Vallarpadm.